hello, 2026
It's 1 a.m. and I can't sleep. I'm not even trying to sleep. I'm supposed to be revising my thesis proposal right now, but I'm in the completely wrong headspace for it (still fretting over my med school applications), so I'm writing this blog post in hopes of resetting my brain.
Not an auspicious start for 2026. But there's nowhere to go but up, right?
These days I've been feeling like there's a buffer on my feelings. Nothing is really hitting me yet. It's like a layer of thin plastic on top of my heart: yes, I feel it, but it's not really touching me yet, so I should be fine, right?
Wrong. It's no way to live. I'm still in a hopeful mood, of course, so I know I need to change. I feel like there's a dozen things I want to do better this year. I need to pick some priorities to focus on first. In the meantime, happy new year!