learning the boring stuff
There is a lot in med school that I think is boring.
Now, don't get me wrong. I do want to be in this field. There's literally no other job I could see myself actually having a career in. It's just that I think it's high time I accepted that there's a lot of stuff I find boring, and that I should deal with the fact that it is, in fact, boring. To me, at least.
I have no love for biochemistry at all. I appreciate that it explains a lot of how the body works, but it's really just not my natural inclination. In my last year of high school, I took advanced chem with the goal of getting into med school in mind and ended up slogging through all of it, mechanism by excruciating mechanism. I did the same in college for my two short, nightmarish semesters of learning organic and biochemistry. Always on thin ice: knowing just enough that the big picture made sense, but not always enough to be able to explain the little things.
I wish I could say that through all my years of learning chem I found some love for it, but the feelings I have for it are probably closer to respect and awe for the people who do this on the daily. Though in med school it's become more interesting because the clinical applications are always intertwined with the lessons, it's still the same foreign language it's always been to me.
It's a problem, it really is. I've tried making myself love it, to no avail, so I think I'm just going to start accepting that it's boring (to me) and I just have to deal with it. Because within the gigantic scope of medicine, there's inevitably going to be more stuff I find boring, and it would be in my best interest to learn how to learn boring stuff, too. This is probably a lesson I should've learned years and years ago, but hey, it's never too late to get better, I guess.
In other news—finally got (some) of my uniform, after months of delay. Immediately opened up my old basic life support notes from the start of the school year, in case I ever get thrown into an emergency situation while wearing med student white and/or there's no one more qualified to help than a deer-in-the-headlights 20-something. You just never know.